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NOOO DON'T TAKE THE BOOBS AWAY!!!!! [Aug. 6th, 2005|11:29 pm]
Emily
[Current Mood |tiredand a LIL angry]
[Current Music |Billie Holiday]

eh I feel like telling everyone about what I've been doing
Friday started off with nausea and throwing but, but turned out sooo awesome.... but I can't type such things right now so I'm going to update later. (oh and I know you're going to be checking this page compulsively so you can find out what happened)

I'm going to type this before I forget....
Joan Rivers was walking around interviewing people for some show.... You know what she was doing... talking to people about bad celebrity mug shots... talking about the worst side of celebrities and blah blah.
WTF? EVERY PICTURE OF JOAN RIVERS IS HER WORST SIDE!!! HOW CAN SHE GO AROUND LAUGHING WITH PEOPLE ABOUT HOW SO AND SO LOOKED SO BAD?!?!?
anyways...
then today I watched a Vampire movie with Zach. It was cool because it was gorey, had naked lesbians, and it was freaky and other things... as far as a storyline goes.... it was pretty bad LOL there really wasn't a sollution because they didn't kill all the vampires and then the heroes died. WHAT THE HELL KINDA OF RESOLUTION IS THAT?

I FEEL LIKE SHOUTING!!!!!!!!!

Then me and zach ate subway, watched music videos, jumped on the trampoline, talked.....
I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM AND YOU ALL SHOULD BE JEALOUS BECAUSE I GOT THE BEST GUY IN THE WHOLE WORLD!!!


but then when I came home, which wasn't that long ago, I had like a sudden rush of anger/energy I just wanted to shout at someone and make someone feel bad.... blame someone for something... but I kinda got over it even though I got mad at my bro I didn't yell at him... though he had no right to shove meow meow off the chair when there was another one open....



one more random, pointless irrelevant thing...
Does anyone consider 'pissed' to be a swear word? because you apperently can't say that on tv. It was funny though... "How can they have an edited movie with Jay and Silent Bob???"
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(no subject) [Apr. 12th, 2005|02:56 pm]
Emily
[Current Music |"Perfect Day"]

I've been bored as hell lately not being able to go on the internet much. But it has helped me in a way. I read my journal from St.Rose. And I just remembered so much and it made me realize that I really should just stop caring about everything. I remember the journal entry from the day after my birthday. And it was just as angsty and depressing as all the other ones. I remembered the joy I took in sleeping my life away and not eating anything. It made me remember why I now weigh 110 as opposed to my 125. all the entries are pretty much the same, my life was so boring. I was SO alone, I don't know how I forgot about all of that. I'm so pathetic, I tell people how much better the people are in wisconsin and how cool all my friends are. (right) The majority of my friends pay the same amount of attention to me now as they did when I was 1200 miles closer. so why on earth was I so looking forward to coming up there? My situation could be a number of things that you miss something so much more when its gone, maybe htey just forget what a crappy friend I am, they pity me.... a lot of things really.
The point is this whole time when I couldn't come online, I didn't really care what was happeneing , and I'd put money down that none of you really cared what was happening with me. with or without you I feel depressed angry and empty so I might as well stop wasting my life away sitting on this goddamn computer feeling sorry for myself cause my friends are so far away.

well they're farther away than originally thought.

so anyways, what I am getting to is that I won't be updating anymore, and I probably wont be online anymore much. I might update if I'm bored one day or something actually happens you know if I go to jail or kill someone something like that.
but I'm just getting sick of this and I'd rather be completly straight with myself and be alone than continue to lie to myself pretending that I matter.
So goodbye
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(no subject) [Mar. 9th, 2005|08:44 pm]
Emily
life gets to a point where you're so tired you can't sleep and you're hungry you can't eat, and you are just so sick of crying that you wonder 'why am I still holding on......?'
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(no subject) [Feb. 13th, 2005|11:43 am]
Emily
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comment to be added bitchez, I sick of you people reading my journal when you know I don't want you to.


Freaks.
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(no subject) [Oct. 23rd, 2004|01:44 pm]
Emily
first of all I wanted everyone to read this email I got and I'm too lazy to send it to everyone so read it here
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saw the grudge on friday... and then I watched the day after tomorrow which made me remember how much I absolutely love Jake Glyennhal... but anyways the Grudge is the scariest fucking movie ever. I am almost NEVER scared by movies but there were times I had to look away. I do want to see it again because Nikki and Tyler and whoever that other kid was were being so obnoxious that I jsut wanted to.... I dunno but I was really pissed.

I really really REALLY want to come home.

I cant stop crying today... I look like absolute hell but hey when do I not.
later
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(no subject) [Oct. 16th, 2004|12:24 pm]
Emily
I hate it, this world.

part of me would really like to die right now. I would like to forget about all those who forget me, who act insensitive to me.... so insensitive. I know I over react but I am not one to back down and just let people stand there and dis me. I am not one to just let things slide, and definatly not one to let things go and to forgive.

Its just the way I am and I apologize to everyone for not being everything they want me to be.

blah I made two more dolls to add to my collection.
it now consists of: Insanity, Anger, Lonliness

the next one will probably be the doll of death. but I really like Lonliness. Chu is jealous.

with all these bits and pieces, they'll never figure me out...
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(no subject) [Oct. 6th, 2004|03:48 pm]
Emily
If god controls the land and disease
and keeps his watchful eye on me
if he's really so damn mighty
well my problem is I can't see
who would wanna be... who would wanna be such a control freak

love that song.....

nothing to say at the moment... but everything is alright.
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(no subject) [Sep. 24th, 2004|04:17 pm]
Emily
I jsut updated like a few mins ago but let me take time to vent about how much I hate kailie and how much I now hate will.
He calls me shallow because I hate kailie and her fake plastic barbie doll smile but he's the one who goes after girls like maddy and devin and kailie.... hmmm I think I see a pattern forming....
WHen I met kailie she was a stupid, breathy-speaking, air headed prep. then all of a sudden shes a stupid, breathy-speaking, air headed "punk princess" WTF she doesn't even know what punk is and its like a fucking oxy-moron to be a punk princess. I don't even feel like typing anymore there isn't even much more I could say besides IHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOU

and people wonder why I hate the fucking human race. its because people like that get together and make more people like that.

life is a sexually transmitted disease
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(no subject) [Sep. 2nd, 2004|04:52 pm]
Emily
I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more - no less. Ask me anything you want, even if it's extremely personal. Then you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends to ask you anything.
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